random thoughts at 2 am

Entourage is interesting. Plan: check out more.

It's frustrating when someone says they support whatever you choose to do, but when you tell them you're doing something besides what they want you to do, they always find a reason why doing that thing is either a) bad for your future, b) morally decadent, or c) misled. Coincidence? I can't help but think not.

Writing music (or trying to) is so frustrating. Ideas come so easily when you're not trying. As soon as you try, everything you think of just sucks. It's like a physical law. How do you then remember what you're randomly thinking about long enough to make use of it? Maybe I should invest in one of those ipod audio recorders so I can sing ideas to myself... maybe not. Maybe that's trying too hard. And then no ideas will come.

Sometimes the hardest thing is to just be yourself. Same idea as above. Being yourself is so easy, when you're not trying, right???? Then as soon as you try, it gets complicated.

I used to think putting in my best, maximal effort, was the solution to everything. It's interesting to know that sometimes not trying as hard, or at least not forcing things to happen, is better. Life is subtle like that.